Oh Mother please, what can I say ?
I wish you a happy Mother’s Day
Although I cannot see your face
Because I’m stuck within this place
I hope the sun shines where you are
You’re a super mum – the brightest star
I hope you like this card I sent
Made it myself – it’s really meant….
….to resemble a lovely flower
Not a spoon or the Eiffel Tower…
….but honestly, comes from my heart
That’s the best place I can start
I haven’t written you for a while
It’s very hard for me to smile
It’s very hard for me to live
It’s very hard for me to give
It’s just me here and no one else
Despite the guys in all the cells
Despite the wall of constant noise….
….of laughs and cussing from the boys
I am surrounded, yet the truth
….is I’m so lonely in my youth
Not a friend to lend a shoulder
Not a guide as life gets colder
You are the closest one to me
But how often do I see ?
Once a week, or sometimes two
Plus my phone call coming through
I wish I had what you have got
But I have clearly lost the plot
Your life it’s obvious, is defined
By church, and God the Mastermind
The one who’s made you what you are
The one who’s helped you bear this scar….
….of me, this embarrassment – your precious son
Of me – 2 more years to be done
So tell me Mother, on your big day
Why did God let me slip away ?
I hear the birds and see the stars
But only through these painful bars
You have your smile, you have your peace
My door it slams. There’s no release
God hangs with you, but not with me
What sort of god would your god be ?
Mother’s Day ? don’t make me laugh
Where is he, your ‘God and a half ?’
Should have a house – block day, a special date
Just our lot, we’ll celebrate
I’m sorry Mom, don’t mean those words
Wish I could go and join those birds
So happy in their freedom song
Industrious, where they belong
Having a purpose every morning
Not dreading every day a – dawning
Mother…….please ignore my self pity
I did the crime back in the city
It’s only right I serve my time
Take no notice of my whine
If you were stood here now, I’d hear
‘Son, God loves you, have no fear
He watches you each day each night
He knows your pain and sees your plight
God’s love for you is always strong
God forgives them who have done wrong
And as your Mom, my expertize
Is to pray for you – get on my knees
God knows my son and loves him so
And has a plan for him to grow
Me and Him, we’re on your case
So get that smile back on your face’
I suppose I must try and locate….
….this god of yours, make him a mate
Look dear Mom, let’s re-assess
I wrote this to try and bless
You took my rubbish words and built….
….me up again, right to the hilt
I promise that I will have a try….
….At this praying lark – yeah, to your guy
This God has done great things for you
Perhaps he might help me out too
So, I have a hope, I’m feeling better
I’m so glad I wrote this letter
Mom, I love you, what can I say?
Have a wonderful Mother’s Day
© 2016 John Sterry